yea today is my birth day
thanks to my mom+dad for prepare ol stuff :D
Everything works okey, my friends that come was satisfied with my party...
all happy
EXCEPT ME

i dont know why, but just disappointed

i dont have any conversation with her, even a single shake hand or say 'happy birth day gi' (its simple, but very important for me)

may be i'm not important either for her
i'm just a STRANGER in her eyes
i'm just a guy that VERY SUCK for her to chat with

I AM JUST WASTING HER IMPORTANT TIME

may be better she chat with someone SMARTER than me, someone SENIOR that can protect her, SUPPORT her...

i'm just a BIG FAT LOSER (like i never did 'something' for her)
but its okey

I STILL LOVED YOU SO MUCH (definitely its true)

may god be with u, always